Becoming

"We're hiding here inside a dream, and all our doubts are now destroyed. The guidance of the morning star will lead the way into the void." – Ghost “He Is”

When I began Sympathy For Samael last April I did not know how much I needed the platform in order to find myself. I remember the first time I wondered how I would possibly begin to explain my deconstruction if I was ever asked. It felt insurmountable; which memories mattered most, what stories showed the scars? But, bit by bit, the words came.

I haven’t written for pleasure in about 8 years, and through reliving these experiences and committing them to words I’ve found a way back to myself. I am a more confident individual, and more expressive instead of staying quiet. But with that came pain, and I had to choose to drown in it, or endure through it.

I have what I believe is a solid foundation upon which I can continue to build as time allows me. Which is good, because lately I have been busy in a good way. I have had the pleasure of founding a Non-Theistic Satanic community here in my hometown. We have gained significant ground in the first few months of operations, and are encouraged for the future we are building. Without Sympathy For Samael, I would not have had the courage.

There is much that I get to assist with, and it gives me a deeper satisfaction of life than I’ve known outside of family. In times such as those we find ourselves surviving through, I remember the words of my love, “Control what you can.” So I’m doing that, and working in my community to make an impact where I can.

This does mean the Sympathy For Samael project may turn down some of its activities, but that does not mean I am finished with it.

Please continue to check in and see what’s new.

Ave Satanas.